Jul 12 2009
‘Inner Self Awareness’
Inner Matriarch, Inner Patriarch, Inner Child, Inner Goddess,
Inner Self Awareness
There needs to be an energetic balance in your life. Just like day and night, hot and cold, sunny and cloudy, wet and dry, light and dark. Believe it or not, we need both positive and negative aspects in our life, and within ourselves. Let’s say you’re a good girl, a very good girl, and have disowned your bad girl side, what will tend to happen is that you will attract that bad girl in other people, males, females, pets, electrical equipment, car, house. Sounds crazy, doesn’t it? Yet, it’s true.
Have you ever had your disowned selves, turn up in animals?
Your pets maybe …..
How would you know?
How would this look?
Imagine trying to control a cat. I’m sure many of you know that a cat has a mind of it’s own, and usually does the opposite to what you want it to do, and the more you force your views on the cat, the more stubborn it will become.
I have had cats in my life, although they did not actually belong to me, I was still the one feeding them and watching them multiply, wishing the owners would take responsibility for them. Even though I complained at how much they were costing me to feed, secretly I loved having them around, especially the new batches of kittens.
I realised pretty soon that I was attracting the cats for my growth and learning. As my life changed and twisted and spun out of control, the volume of cats would increase. As my life began to show structure and calm, the cats would decrease, and that would yo yo up and down. I could get them down to about 3 from the maximum of about 17, but I could never get them to 1 or 0.
There were times I would skimp on things for myself, but I always managed to feed the cats. It’s like they had some kind of power over me. I attributed greater importance to them than I did to myself. It’s as if the cats cast a spell over me, and I was under their control, I valued them more than I valued myself.
Can you imagine one of your disowned selves turning up as a car?
Yes I said car.
Imagine a man who only buys old, cheap cars that constantly break down. He spends most of his time attending to this car, rather than his wife and children. It is always breaking down, and he is always fixing it. When he finally decides to get rid of it and buy another car, guess what? You guessed it, he buys another old car that has similar problems, so that his focus is constantly on the car, rather than himself or his family.
Or! Imagine turning up as an old house.
Renovators dream, or, sane persons nightmare. 
If a man doesn’t value himself or his family, this is exactly what he may do, and spend the next 20 years fixing it, renovating it, (sort of) but never completing it, just valuing it more than anything else, and maybe even losing, what he should have valued instead. To make matters worse, imagine him living out his days sleeping in his car, the object of all that focus, time and attention.
Always remember that energies can only be balanced, they can never be eradicated, because we need both the positive and the negative of everything. Once you become aware, you can turn one up and the other down, just remember to respect both.